graduating from college is making me all emo
i finally got a walter van beirendonck for eastpak backpack. and it makes me happy
BUT
......... is it just me or do yall who have a similar blog also find it kind of slightly embarassing on some level to be talking about clothes/appearances/what you got/what you want 24/7? granted this one is not all about fashion but then again anything beautiful i see is ultimately related to fashion in my head...and it's not something i can help. that's just the way i am i guess.
still once in a while i break out into a cold sweat thinking about how shallow and idiotic i must come across. i am 22 for christ's sake. and im not gonna lie, i am really really bothered by the fact that when you google my full name, this blog is one of the first things that comes up.
see, i am constantly torn between being a "sensible" person with a "stable" income, ie working in finance or trading or something...and completely indulging in my "creative" side and doing what i can feel passionate about. my gut knows what's right for me but i feel a lot of hesitation coming out and saying it, especially to my friends....most of who are/will be working for big companies after graduation, doing great things for the world etc. trust me, i dont think fashion in its true form is shallow, and i would defend it in every way possible if i had to. but in comparison to them i feel ...small.
am i starting to sound like that loser on hipster runoff?? i just wanted to write this here so that strangers (and potentially ppl i know ugh) can skim through and laugh at me and i can try to take myself less seriously
graduating from college is weird isnt it? suddenly the future is so real. youre faced with all these options and it can be exciting but in a very very stressful way.
one thing i know for sure is that if i want google to match my name with shit i can actually be proud of anytime soon, i need to get to work...